something called " my own"

this is just about graphic design, which I do self-study.

To have something called "my own" is not easy when I dont have enough time to concentrate.
Sometimes I found it and it was recognized.
BUt I am the one who quickly changes, and I myself soon feel bored with that " my own".
I, once again, search for something new.
And it always start with searching for inspiration, then fighting with that inspiration in order not to make copies, and finally processing what the inspiration left - I call it "dealing with myself".